Love & Other Strong Emotions

- T.

Love

It tears at you

It rips you apart

It stomps on you

And leaves you bleeding

It breaks you down bit by bit

Piece by piece

Your soul it will feast

So throw it away

And bury it deep

And hope she doesn’t dig it up again,

This horrible twisted thing we call love.

- G.

Dark

Dark and full of passion,

But of course I don’t cry out my love,

A restraining order would come to me,

And I would be kept away from that which I need.

I know of the wants, the wishes, the hopes,

Yet I say nothing,

For fear of being broken again.

Curled into a fetal position,

Locked in the dark recesses of my mind,

Fear covers me like a suffocating blanket

And nobody cares enough to save me.

- K.

Lost Love

If I could love fully again

Retain my youthful innocence

It would be grand

However, I’ve been tainted

I get abused

And I abuse back —

You can’t hurt others for what people have done to you

But like a dying ember of fire

My flame is slowly going out

I feel like a dying ember that wants to be lit again

I don’t want to hurt someone new

But how can I love someone without losing myself?

- J.

Today

Today I am the bitch.

I am full of rage and adrenaline.

Just the thought of hurting you gives me a rush.

I feel violent

And I wish you were here to feel it.

Hatred is a strange thing:

Like sugar it can feed you.

Like sugar it dissolves in the rain.

I loathe you endlessly

Yet sadly miss the nights I didn’t.

What do I have now?

A few kisses in my hair,

A few words scratched in my soul forever.

No more of you in my hands.

You are gone, but it is never over.

Come back again to hurt me,

For I need to feel once more.

- R.

There’s No Reality

Lost souls,

Everyone is a one-end drag:

No one to tell your stories

No one to listen

No one to answer.

Floating through the air,

And no one to care,

There’s no reality.

Nothing but a lost image.

There’s no reality.

Every Star I See

In every star I see a new emotion,

Floating away from me

Like the river to the sea.

And every time I look up to them,

I find the one that gives me the most hope.

It’s the smallest star,

The dimmest star that feeds my imagination,

Standing alone on a black coverlet of space.

Tonight I can’t find my star.

My smile fades,

My head slowly falls

And a tear rolls over my cheek.

Somewhere

Somewhere under all that I’ve been fearing,

Under night time’s peace,

Between blankets and you,

Somewhere I am lost

And the tears won’t fall.

I do not know if I am wrong.

Are you mine?

Those comforting eyes,

That confident grin,

Your breath like music,

And so many beautiful words…

Are they mine to keep?

They’ll be taken from me before summer.

Fire

I’ve killed you now

Yet you still bleed.

The puddle of your mortality

Now creeps toward me.

Flowing so smoothly,

Like a river,

Over the seemingly miles of space

Between you and me.

Your blood contains fire

And burns when it finds me.

The last light in your eyes retreats

As you watch me

Burst into flames.

Love is Something Mad

Paralyze the fears, shed away the tears

Laugh at all the leers, sing for all the years

Sing a slight of mind, a game that is timed,

The scream inside the light amusing little rhyme.

A seed enrich the soul, alone inside the hole,

To race and miss the goal, an actor plays the role.

The feelings that are had, in no way are they glad,

Killing all that’s bad, love is something mad.

Anxiety and Love

Raindrops at my windowsill

Ghosts of the past haunting me:

I am not the one.

I Hate It

I hate it when he looks at me

And then begins to cry.

I hate it when he tells the truth

And then begins the lie.

I hate it when he walks away

And doesn’t say a word.

I hate it when he comes back

And yells at what he heard.

I hate it when he’s blaming me

For something I don’t do.

I hate it when he’s mad at me

For something he does too.

I hate him when he breaks my heart

And thinks that that’s all right.

I hate myself for holding on

And hiding from the light.

Before

In every moment I feel a little weaker than before

A little madder than before

No where gladder than before

A little sadder than before.

Every feeling that I have now is stranger than before

Just like you now than before

A little different than before.

I can’t stand you like before

You can leave now

But before

A little something you’ve forgotten,

That you’ve taken and I’ve given

See me shaken and I’m beaten

But I’m not yours like before

Just a vision,

Not your whore.

- L.